Wat happened to me actually?

Actually i dunno wat happen lately...
the way i react is so much different from before...
i get less motivated...
and this is the thing i notice...
no matter how many book i read for motivation also...
it help only a while...
it cannot completely motivate me for a longer period...
y?
issit because i ady immune to those ady?
or juz becoz the real motivation i want is not wat i read?
since the day u left me alone...
i notice i started to react like this...
issit becoz of u r the one i needed actually?
or actually the motivation i need is juz u?